Do not fret because of evildoers, Be not envious toward wrongdoers.

For they will wither quickly like the grass, And fade like the green herb.

Trust in the LORD and do good; Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness.

Delight yourself in the LORD, And He will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, and He will do it.

He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, And your judgment as the noonday.

Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him… Psalm 37:1-7

When I was a little girl, one of my greatest joys were flowers. I guess maybe they still are. It seems my heart has a place that only God’s beauty can fill. When I look around at this earth, see the beautiful home Abba God created for us …all of its beauty…my heart just fills up.

In spring I’d pick every wildflower I could find. Armloads of bouquets. The great thing about wildflowers is that there is no shortage of them. If you cut an armload one day, in a few days , there are more to take their place. It’s as if Abba gives us an unlimited supply.

In this difficult season…Baxter’s illness…treatment…recovery…I found such comfort in Father God. Every morning His Word was there speaking to the need of the day. It was remarkable just how timely each day’s scripture was. I kept a journal to remind myself of every scripture, every circumstance, every kind gesture…I knew I’d forget something. I had to document it.

But recently, Holy Spirit spoke to my heart that had I not allowed Him to be my entire comfort, my entire resting place. I sensed He was not speaking to my heart…He was waiting for me to repent of finding comfort apart from Him.

It hadn’t been a heinous sin or blasphemy. Just soothing myself with things on this earth and not Him. I was so ashamed. After all the miracles and blessings He sent our way, after His Presence being so real…I’d rather have a cookie or piece of cake. (Me. Who controls my sugar intake like a prison guard.) I’d rather purchase a “want” or a “need”.

See? By the world’s definition, not so terrible. But anything that takes me away from Him…well, it’s sin.

He reminded me in Psalm 37 just how wonderful He is. Sending me wildflowers to find His beauty in. Speaking through His Word daily. Sensing His Presence in the darkest hours. So grateful the Word tells us our Father remembers “we are but dust”.

And in this Psalm 37, the great phrase, “He will give us the desires of our heart”…that He will actually put Godly desires in our heart, not just send us whatever we think we want. He will place His desires in our heart…that’s just the best.

Why? Because in ALL things, we will run to Him…we will see Him…and He will give us true comfort. And that, being with Him, is our beautiful home.

Food for thought