Have you ever noticed how often we are told in scripture not to be fearful? We constantly read, “Fear not”…”Don’t be afraid”. The book of Joshua alone is full of “fear nots”. So why do we struggle with fear?

The particular fear I’m writing about today is…that He would leave us.

As I end my morning prayers, I’m always asking that Jesus not leave me. Truthfully, I cannot bear to think of living this life without Him and I certainly don’t want to think of Eternity without Him. 

I know intellectually that our Yeshua said, “I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” (Matthew 28:20). Jesus SAID it. He does not lie. So why do I doubt? Why does that distant twinge in my heart rise up and say I will be forsaken?

Just this week I’ve confessed once again my arrogance. As if I were more powerful than Yeshua. If He said He won’t leave me, He won’t. Even on my very worst day with the very worst attitude, with the very worst heart…Yeshua isn’t going anywhere.

I am not powerful enough to negate His words or His power. How arrogant to think (even sub-consciously) I can change His truth… His truth of His eternal Presence.

I didn’t mean to be arrogant. I didn’t mean to doubt. I just remain painfully aware that I still dwell in a body of flesh that must be crucified daily.

I do think that a healthy realization of our need for Yeshua our Savior is a good thing. Having godly sorrow to repentance keeps us running to the only One who can forgive and restore. However, I don’t need to act like an outsider. I am God’s child. Forgiven. Redeemed. Blessed with His grace.

So I have made a promise to myself and to Yeshua. When the evil one comes around saying I am not good enough. That I am not worthy of salvation. That I am going to be forsaken. I will have a new reply.

That reply is this. “Yes. I am not worthy but Yeshua’s finished work on the cross is enough. I have given Him myself. He is my Savior. He is my Lord. And no matter what I am…He has promised to never leave me…or any of those that are His.”

 I am safe. You are safe. We are in Him and He is in us…no more begging Yeshua not to leave me. No more believing I’m not part of His family. Rather, I’m praising Him that He is with us…even to the end of the age.